why does it have to be this way? :| I gave way for three fucking times. Do I have to give way again? *sighs* I try to escape from all sorts of misery I’m having then I stumble into another and battle with a new one. HOW GREAT. Letting go of someone special to you, especially the person you love, is one of the most difficult things to do. I’ve done it several times, with two different people — my best friend and HIM. I had to choose just one, so I chose my best friend and had to let go of HIM. Still, I lost my best friend, too. :| Why can’t things stay the way I wanted them to? I’ve tried giving something up and letting someone go just to keep the other one. Then I still lose them both. Why can’t both of them stay? Or even just one of them? I don’t want to love another again, at least not yet, lest I might have to let him go again. gahh. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say here. My thoughts are SO NOT organized anymore. I cut myself, smile upon seeing those wounds, and then just lose the thrill. So I cut myself again, smile, lose, cut, smile, lose, cut. yadda yadda yadda. :|  This shit isn’t even going anywhere. Might as well drop it now. t(-.-t)